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Sunday, 24 April 2005
IN LOVE....and happy!!!
Mood:
 happy
Now Playing: Trick Daddy "Suga"
Well....I have never been more in love with luis than i am now... I love him with all my heart and soul. I know that we have been sayin that we loved eachother since January but now I can truly say that I KNOW that i love him. Its great. The only bad part is when I am not with him it is lyk my heart hurts and I just want so bad to be in his arms. It really hurts sometimes. But when I am with him I am the happiest person you'll ever meet. I am a changed person. I am so happy with him and I am so greatful to have found a good guy. I love you Luis!!!! Te amo con todo mi corazon!!!!!
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 1:28 PM EDT
Saturday, 2 April 2005
Message to 80% of the Aunt Beaz Employeez that Wanna Run their mouth About me...
Mood:
 irritated
Now Playing: T.I "U Dont Know Me"
Wellz...
People at my mom's work have been running their mouth about me for dating luis and frankly I think they need to worry about making their cheeseburgers and milkshakes and mind their own fucking business. I think that they all have problems theirselves and need to worry about eachother and not about me. I mean the 2 bitches that are talking about me have problems that I could talk about for the world to hear but I dont say nothing cuz its not my business....but apparently they think that my life is their business and wanna talk to eachother about me dating a hispanic but damnit I LOVE MY MEXICAN...and they can all go to hell if they wanna say one fucking thing about him or me.... I want them to know the road Ive been down before Luis...when I wuz dating all these fucked up guyz with millions of problems they didnt say nothing and now that I am dating the greatest and most perfect guy ever they got something to say. But I dont give a rats ass what u guyz think I am happy and I wish sooooo much that Mike still worked there cuz if he did yall would not be saying shit about me but its okay... Its just bad when u got a 40-50year old woman with hickeys all over her neck from a gray haired UGLY guy talking shit about ur boyfriend when her son is a fucking juvenile deliquent from hell or is the laziest guy u'll ever meet and you also got her son's girlfriend talking about ur boyfriend when shes dating the fucking juvinile deliquent thats 16 but acts lyk he's 6.... its crazy but what ever they'll get whats coming... i guess i'll go and cool off for now...MWAH!!! I LOVE U LUIS!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 9:50 PM EST
Tuesday, 15 March 2005
~*~Me & Luis....Still together and doing really good~*~
Mood:
happy
Now Playing: Trick Daddy "Suga"
Well.... Me and luis are kinda unofficially engaged...we are still waiting a while to get married but it wont be long....just after we graduate and buy us a house or get an apartment or something. So its all good. I dont know if all spanish guyz are this way but luis is really good in bed. I mean i have had more fun with him just screwing around than i had havin sex with other ppl. Its greeaaaaaaattttttt!!!! Last nite he wuz over at my house and yall know my parents....im not aloud to have guyz in my room so me and him were on the couch and we were making out and massaging and kissing eachother in cool places lol...and i got more hot than i did having sex with past ppl. I love it.
Well guess what...IM GONNA BE AN AUNT!!! My half sister is pregnant. Andi told me about it. I wuz lyk awwwwwwww!!!! Then Luis goes...u'll be next baby. I wuz lyk Ok sure...nah luis said that we would wait lyk 7 years so we can have plenty of time to have sex ...lol.And that is allright with me. The other day I got pissed at Racheal cuz she wuz sayin some stuff about Rose but the thing about it wuz it applied to me then she wuz kinda dissin luis and it pissed me off but she didnt mean it exactly towards me and she wuznt trying to piss me off so i didnt bitch about it. Its ok. Well u know what I am getting along with all my friends now so i am happy. Life is pretty good at tha moment.
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 7:43 PM EST
Saturday, 26 February 2005
~*~Im so Piss Offt!!!lol...but im fucking serious~*~
Mood:
irritated
Now Playing: LIl Jon and the East Side Boyz "forgot tha name of the song...oops...too pissed ot think"
Well, Tonite wuz just wierd... I guess that is what I get for going out while Luis's dad is in the hospital. First when I tell Luis that im going out he gets that sad tone in his voice lyk he didnt want me going out no where but I am gonna do my own thing cuz I never told Luis that he couldnt and if luis isnt home to talk to me I really have every rite to go out. so anyways i felt bad but it wuz ok. Then my dad comes in the room and starts saying that I wuz such a bad person for going off with my friends while my boyfriend wuz at the hospital with his dad. That made me feel lyk shit. But I went out anywayz. Then on the way home my friend tells me some info on my ex that I didnt really wanna hear. I mean I am over him but sometimes it still pisses me off. I mean this is the gurl that he said that he hated and he said that she wuz a crazy bitch and now he has been trying to talk to her. Now i know he is a fucking liar. He freaking called her on Valentine's Day. She says he wuz drunk but drunk people speak with a sober mind. That wuz the saying. Sometimes I just get so freaking mad at him for all the things he did to me. I wuz so nice and understanding with him even when everyone told me that he wuz a lazy lying sack of shit that I needed to get rid of...I still wuz so patient and nice to him and never even bitched at him for nothing when he most definetley deserved it. And this is what I get. I should have realized just how much of a jerk he wuz when he called me and I told him they were taking me to the hospital and all he could say wuz uh well I am going out with my cousin i'll talk to ya when i talk to ya. I mean honestly. And he never even had the balls to actually break up with me officially. It just kinda happened but its ok...every1 knows I just announced that I wuz single after 1 week of not hearing from his ass when he wuz 'working'. Then I started messing around with Luis and I never looked back. I just hope that one day he ends up with a gurl that will treat him the way he deserves to be treated...bitched at every damn day of the fucking week. cuz honestly he is not a real man. No he isnt. His excuse for not seeing me wuz he didnt have a car and then it wuz his liscense but you know wut Luis doesnt have a car and he finds he way over all the time. Luis doesnt have a steady job and for valentine's day and Xmas I wuz treated lyk a queen. But whatever. I cannot even believe that I even cried for that mother fucker. I cant believe I cared so much and I THOUGHT i wuz in love...but no...i wuznt now I am in love with luis and by being in love with luis i see what love really is and that wuz not how i felt about my ex. What we had wuznt even hardly a real relationship...i wuz being used so much and I wuz too stupid to even see it. oh but I see it now. Its ok though...but anyways back to my other story...
well...as u can tell when I got home I wuz feeling pissed over my ex and I wuz feeling bad cuz Luis hadnt called me and i figured he wuz mad because I wuz out doing stuff with my friends cuz the last thing he had said to me on the phone wuz 'dont do anything i wouldnt do' and I wuz lyk "i promise I wont...trust me" and when he got off the phone he didnt say I love you or nothing and that made me feel so bad. So I decided to call him and he told me a while back that his phone wont ring but I figured it would say he had a missed call from me and then he could call me back...but when I called his brother answered the phone...and that just took me back into time about when I called another certain person whose phone wuz not suppose to work and they answered but I told his bro it wuz me and at first he wuz lyk 'well he is..uh...well just wait a second" and then luis wuz lyk hello and i told him that i got back and I just wanted him to know that i wuz back and i told him that i felt bad b/c i had had a feeling that he wuz mad at me and he wuz lyk no i wuznt mad i wuz just hoping u would be safe and worried about that but im glad that ur safe...then he wuz telling me he wuz driving back and he guessed he would go and then he did say he loved me before he got off the phone but something still sounded a little off and it is worrying me but hopefully tommarow whenever he calls me i'll feel better but he has to go to church and everywhere else tommarow so there is no telling what time that will be so i just have a long time to worry but it will be ok. I love you Luis!
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 10:24 PM EST
Tuesday, 15 February 2005
~*~Who would have thought~*~
Mood:
 lazy
Now Playing: Frankie J "ObsessioN"
Well me and Luis are still dating and he has actually been able to come to my house and stay and my dad LIKES HIM. My grandma and mom dont accept it at all and the one person who i thought would kill me for dating outside my race is the one person who accepts me. My dad and me are much closer now because he is the only one who wants me to be happy and not try to make everyone else happy. My grandma and mom want me to be miserable and make them happy. WHATEVER...im going now cuz i need to get ready to talk to my baby at 8 or 9 whenever. Luv ya toodles!!!!!!!!!
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 8:03 PM EST
Sunday, 30 January 2005
~*~I am IN LOVE...~*~
Mood:
happy
Now Playing: Blackstreet "Dont Leave Me'
Well i never would have ever imagined that I would be so in love with LUIS .....LUIS !!!!! But he has stolen my heart. I thought that i have been in love before but NO....not until now. I feel such strong intense feelings that i have never felt before. I have NEVER felt this way in my entire life. Its great. The only problem is no one accepts us and i cant even tell half my family or they will disown me. It sucks but im in love with luis and no one can keep me away from him. Some of my friends are being bitches about this and it sux but screw them if they wanna act that way. I love luis so much I cant be without him. I didnt think I could ever be this way with a guy. With Luis I am soo confortable with him. I can be myself with him. I am not afraid to be the real me. The goofy, wierd, me. I can just be myself and know that no matter what i say or do he loves me as much as i love him. Its such a great feeling. I Love It!!!! I talk to him all nite and even when i hang up the phone I still wish i wuz talking to him. I could be with him all the time and talk to him all day. When I am not with him I am thinking about him and wishing i wuz with him. It is just indescribable but I am happy!!!
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 4:49 PM EST
Wednesday, 26 January 2005
~*~Things Have Changed....~*~
Mood:
 silly
Now Playing: Kelly Clarkson "Since You Been Gone"
Well, So much has changed .... I am DATING Luis now. Surprise Surprise. I havent told any of my family except my grandma but the truth will come out because i look lyk a french whore cuz i had lyk 3 hickeys on one side of my neck and 1 more on the other now i just have one big dark one. Its crazy and hard to hide it but I am doing good so far knock on wood. Luis is soooo good to me. He dedicated this spanish song to me. Its about a gurl who gets done wrong by her boyfriend and they break up but she still has feelings for him and cries for him but the guy in the song is saying to forget about the ex bf and come with him and he will make everything better...lol. Luis is the sweetest guy ever. ITs hard though because no one accepts me with him because of the race issue. But I wuz so hurt by u know who and i thought i would never find a guy who would treat me right but luis does and every one at school tells me how lucky i am to have him cuz he is the perfect guy.
I wuz so pissed off the other weekend when u know who is sooo happy to call my best friend the gurl who he called a bitch and said that she wuz crazy and he wont call me the gurl he supposively loved. But its ok... Luis has took my mind off him because I know wut a REAL MAN is now. That is the gods honest truth. Its hard dating luis because of all the ppl who dont accept us dating because of the race issue but he is just too good to give up. I love him soooooo much and I am happy...so every one else can just kiss my ass.
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 6:41 PM EST
Monday, 17 January 2005
~*~Life is Weird if u ask me~*~
Mood:
 d'oh
Now Playing: Kelly Clarkson "Since U Been Gone"
Well...Saturday Luis wuz basically stalking me. I know he wuz just trying to find me and be nice but it wuz wierd. I see him every second of everyday except for Saturday's and Sunday's. The weekend is lyk my break from him. WELL, He went out trying to find me Saturday and when he did I wuz kinda trying to be nice but at the same time stay away from him and anyways he ended up kissing me lyk 3 times. First at the mall then at shatters and then he told me HE LOVED ME. I wuz lyk 'oooo shit maybe friends w/ benefits DOESNT work out too nicely' lol.... I really really CARE for luis but not as much as he does for me i think. Its so nice to have a guy be so into u but at the same time it kinda is creepy too. Luis says he has me a 4 page letter from friday and a 2 1/2 page letter from saturday and he said that he thought about me all day yesterday and all he wanted wuz to be with his 'babygurl' and he wuz asking me if i knew wut 'te quiero' meant...(i love you) but ANYWAYS........im gonna figure this out before long IT WILL BE OKAY.
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 3:56 PM EST
Friday, 14 January 2005
~*~Gettin Sum Vitamin D in my Life...hellz yea~*~
Mood:
 chatty
Now Playing: Avril Lavigne (that luv song that reminds me of sum1 that i cant think of the name of rite now)
Well...Im finally back in tha game now...well i havent actually been out of it but now its much more fun...hehe... Luis molested me (but with permission) in tha middle of second wing and in tha middle of 3rd wing. I mean me and him have done EVERYTHING AND I MEAN EVERYTHING other than penetration rite in tha middle of the hall. Its fun and i needed it. Everyone looks at me crazy and i dont know if its becuz im getting a lil sumthin sumthin in tha middle of the hall or if it is because im with luis. I dont know its probably a mixture of both. It wuz so funny though 2 days ago ... he rubbed 'mi ponocha' and he kissed my ummmm 'pecho' and STUFF and this is all in tha middle of 2nd wing and he took my hand and put it on his 'dancing chili pepper' lol and it wuz ummm happy VERY HAPPY and GRANDE lol. I swear i have fun at school. But now..........Luis is mad at me cuz i think he thinks i went to pick up guyz tonite but honestly i didnt cuz even though me and luis are not dating its not really rite for me to go with any other dudes just because me and him are the way we are. Im not gonna do Luis tha way that he has been done before cuz luis has done nothing but treat me good and try to keep me happy and im not gonna do anything to hurt him rite now.
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 11:40 PM EST
Saturday, 8 January 2005
~*~School is uhhhh....Interesting~*~
Mood:
 hug me
Now Playing: AFI "Silver & Cold"
Well this semester is pretty good so far...i got my schedule changed and it is pretty easy. I have classes with sum ppl who are gonna shake things up a bit tho but its ok. Luis has a class rite next to every single one of my classes except for one. So I spend all day with him. I said i wouldnt kiss him again so i asked for a hug the other day and i got a kiss and since then he kisses me every day whether i want it or not. I lyk him but at the same time its lyk i get really tired of him being EVERYWHERE I am...i thought i would lyk that but honestly its a lil too much. But for Xmas he got me a GREAT BEAUTIFUL Xmas present...its crystal dolphins and they are beautiful...and he is soooo nice to me its wierd. But whatever...One of my so called friends keeps being rude to him and im getting extremely pissed and i didnt even talk to her friday ... i dont need her if she wants to be a bitch. She's just jealous. Ive got so much on my mind its crazy but im getting used to it. It will be ok. Rose still hates me and get this...she has lunch the same time as me and luis and me and luis walk to lunch together and everytime she sees us she wont even look us in tha face. BUT WHATEVER. Its quite crazy but my life is always a lil crazy im getting used to it by now. lol.
thats all for now
xoxo
Chica del Barrio
Posted by punklovingrrl
at 6:05 PM EST
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